I know I haven’t blogged in a while, and I wanted to let you all know what I’ve been up to. I got admitted to an inpatient eating disorder treatment center in december. I only recently was released (after going through PHP, IOP, etc.). I now realize that my anorexia was not a choice. I know I thought I wanted it, and this blog of mine fed my addiction. But looking back, I realize it really fucking sucks to be mentally held captive. I want all of you to know that if you are being controlled by your thoughts of food, weight, calories, or whatever, you really should talk to someone. I am not saying you should change, I am just saying it feels really good to get it off your chest. I still engage in behaviors, but I am so much happier now that my issues are out in the open and I have people around who know how to support me.
That is all. Please be safe.