Hey guys. I have been on tumblr for a little while now and I feel like I know all of you. You have shown me so much support it is unreal. I've known I've had an eating disorder for about 9ish months, but I just got diagnosed in June. Anorexia nervosa. I just dropped into the underweight category. I don't talk to my friends anymore because I am worried they will want to go out to dinner or eat lunch together in the dining hall. I have given up my life. I find it more enjoyable to sit in the library with my chewing gum and san pellegrino water reading books about recovery than actually enjoying life. I hate exercise, that's something uncommon about me. I haven't binged in a long time. I am used to just thinking of food as an object that is untouchable, too sacred to be destroyed and mangled up within my stomach acid. sorry if that's too graphic. I don't eat anything until dinner. I really like pasta, actually anything italian is pretty amazing. I am obsessed with cooking. I don't like to eat anything that I didn't cook. I count all of my calories. I dont go over 1200, and usually its far below that... This blog is full of all of my thoughts, so if you find it triggering, please don't take it in any wrong way. I want you all to be healthy because I care about all of you.

So about me:
My name's Erin.
I'm 17. I am a nerd. Not in the hipster sort of way, but like I am really smart and have no friends kind of way. I wish I were less socially awkward. I love pink. I have a lot of stress and anxiety about the future. I am very girly. I'm boring and uninteresting. I hope you like me, but it's cool if you don't, i'm used to it.

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